What does stepping into your power mean to you?

Can you imagine what it feels like. What it looks like. The kind of person you would be.

Today I want to share with you a story on personal power. We are going back almost 20 years ago now.

 

Setting the scene

 

I have always been interested in the metaphysical, the magical, spells, and rituals. Learning about the power our intentions hold fascinated me. How the words we speak create our realities and influence our experiences.

At the time I was living with my mum in a block of units with our two cats.

One day I felt this nudge. Something had to change in my life. I was dating a guy, who was really not present or interested. I felt bogged down by ‘stuff.’ I longed for clarity and direction.

I had invested in a little Feng Shui book. In it was a clearing ritual. How fabulous!

Bearing in mind I was still young and I had the idea that if only I cleared my energy, my space, then it would clear the pathway for my boyfriend to come in and commit. How young and naïve I was!

So I did this ritual. It was quite in-depth. I worked through it and really committed myself to it.

As part of the ritual I had to state exactly what I intended. Knowing better than to focus on one person in particular, I felt drawn to going with clearing away anything no longer serving me, getting in the way of having the relationship I want, and while I am at it, clearing out any clutter – starting from my bedroom and working my way up to the rest of the house.

My mother, who would usually be home on a Friday night, happened to have plans and was out for the evening.

I cancelled my plans. As I was finishing the ritual my friend called and suggested coming over to watch a movie. I agreed to go.

Now here is where it gets interesting. As I was about to get into my car a thought popped into my head: “If something happens to the house the cats can’t get out.”

Without thinking much about it, I went back inside and opened the ranch slider onto the balcony upstairs. Just enough for the cats to fit through. We usually left a window open down stairs for them.

Then I set off to see my friend.

A few hours later my mum called: “You have to come home, NOW!”

I knew something had happened, however was quite unprepared for exactly what…

Our unit had burnt down!

 

The fire that changed it all.

 

The fire had started in my bedroom under a dresser…and worked its way from there up to the rest of the house.

Essentially clearing ALL the cutter, at least from my room and the downstairs cupboard. Most of what was not burnt upstairs was smoke and/or water damaged from the fire department hosing out the fire. Most of our belongings had to be thrown out, and what was salvageable – well you don’t ever really get the smell out again.

However, the clearing didn’t stop there. I rang my kind-of boyfriend. He lived a few hours away and said he’d come up the next day.

He came up…and broke up with me.

It was later found the fire was caused by an electrical fault from a power point behind my dresser.

So this all sounds devastating and heart-breaking, right?

 

Out of the ashes

 

Well, here is the thing.  In hindsight, it was one of the most powerful and transformative experience of my life!

Because here is what happened:

I didn’t know who to call. Where would I go with two cats?

The two cats, who escaped from the upstairs ranch slider, as their way out downstairs was blocked by smoke and fire!

I rang the first people who came to mind. Friends of my kind-of boyfriend…and they took me and our two cats in for two weeks, while my mother stayed with her brother.

It was the start of beautiful new friendships AND also my initiation into stepping into my spiritual work.

This event was the START of my NEW life. The way forward.

It seemed devastating, and as if I had lost control of my power. As if it was something to fear for so long afterwards. For many years I feared fully stepping into who I am would cause havoc and destruction.

With hindsight I could see the magic in the experience. The hidden gift.

How on that fateful day, the power the intention of the clearing, removed so much of what was holding me captive.

It removed EVERYTHING that was out of alignment for me at that time. Where I was not living in integrity or honour with myself, where I was devaluing myself, where I was trapped in a life of just living and having no real substance.

Literally, on that night out of the ashes started to rise my inner Phoenix.

Looking back now I have learnt, this inner power is nothing to be feared.

All it brought was change.

A change that was needed. It brought me back to what was important. Taught me to release physical attachment to stuff, because I found so much more sustenance in the new connections and experiences following this event, than I ever found in all the stuff I had beforehand.

Yes, the experience broke me in a lot of ways. It broke me open and into a journey of coming back to Self.

For many years I was afraid of stepping into my power – what if I cause total destruction again?

(Yes, I actually blamed myself for the fire for a long time!).

Then, I realised, just as in nature some seeds needs bushfires to crack open so they can grow, this experience cracked me open to grow in a direction which would change my life FOREVER.

It became one of life’s greatest gifts.

 

The hidden gift

 

Not long after the fire I joined my first psychic development class and started working publicly as a clairvoyant and medium.

It brought me FULLY onto my life path…even if it took a while to recognise this.

 

The take-away

 

 

There is nothing to fear in the cracking open of YOU.

If there was one take away I can share with you on this today, it is to stay in alignment and integrity with you.

To follow a path that honours and values you. To hold on loosely to things and people – especially those who do not honour and value you. To gently release people and experiences who no longer serve you and do not bring love into your life.

I can give you a selection of suggestions and tools to apply.

Yet, ultimately, in the end the most valuable tool is this:

If you were your own best friend. What advice or guidance would you give yourself about any given situation? What actions would you take if you were to love you and treat yourself like someone you love?

 

Chances are, in reading that statement you already have your answer…and the more you can align yourself with the energy of treating yourself with love and care, and gently releasing that which is out of alignment, the easier the shift will be.

This is what stepping into my power means to me. Living a life of alignment to Self.

 

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